oh no todae i woke up late! supposed to accompany minnie to nus for med checkup! haha. paiseh paiseh! LOL. i slpt too late last nite. my sis was puking cos of the curry ramen she ate at ajisen! ps: the curry's stale! so try not to order tt dish!)

minnie, we go for rag on thur n nxt mon los. can ?? haha. feels abit weird to jus chap in like tt.

i so need to exercise. shld start running tomo. anyone wana swim? lol.

sigh. i guess it sucks to be hurt, tho it wasnt intentional in the first place. would u hate the other party if the victim was u?

sins.sins.sins. trying hard to erase them? no way. they stay firm i tell u. then guilt follows.

To Err Is Human, To Forgive Divine . easier said than done i guess.

gomennasai
bunbun

i am the most PETHETIC, MISERABLE lump of shit i have ever known. im unhappy all the bloody time. i go through so much trouble to lose so much weight, but im not any happier than before. in fact, i have never been so depressed and down in my life. and when i did gain some weight, i was miserable because i looked 'normal' and to me, that was fat. why cant i focus on something other than how skinny my arms and legs are, or how i can run my fingers up and down my washboard chest, or how thin my face is now. WHY DO I HAVE TO HAVE SUCH FUCKED UP PRIORITIES IN LIFE????? i dont enjoy my life in the LEAST. i dont fucking CARE if it ended tomorrow, except i know my parents would be stricken with grief, and god knows how much pain i've already caused them. mom cried yesterday, because i poured back some of the porridge she put in my bowl. i guess i can sorta understand where her pain is coming from, but really..try to see things from my point of view too. (however warped that may be) i have no desire to live, my face is perpetually black and i dont know how long this is going to last.

outing to vivo today!
lots of fun, laughter, talking, crapping (ah ma at disco), and not forgetting-photos! (:
arrived slightly after 7, latest! for once it's not sha, i'm so proud of you girl for being the earliest, really!
actually wanted kim gary's for dinner
but the queue was kind of a turn-off
or that we eat there quite often so it was a bit sian
so it was MARCHE instead!me and sha haven't had it since like sec sch days at the one at Hereen, which closed dwn ages ago
queue was ok, pple serving us free watermelon juice while we were in line (which minnie said, when asked how it taste like, taste like watermelon lor, LOL)
we were like led to the table at like the inner most end of the restaurant
so large variety of food to choose from! everything looked and smelt so GOOD~
we settled in the end for some rosti with cheese sausage, crepe with mushrooms and cheese, seafood rice thingy, 2 bottles of overpriced but nice in champagne glasses breezer, super duper tasty chocolate mousse and crepe with maple icecream!
sounds nice right? it's as good as it sounds!

only photo i had before we started eating...
look at the champagne glass, isn't it so pretty? lol




minnie, sha and vanda posing with the glasses! ( where am i? obviously behind the camera! so wei da, sacrifice for their nice nice photos. i'm nice ain't i? i think so too (: )


me and my valentine! she so looks like a guy in the 2nd photo with a moustache right? tsktsk... so MANLY!
come to say, you look like super mario too!

here's a mushroom for you! super mario mushroom!
(as you can see by now, i am tired, a bit blur, very tired, lame, and nt making sense anymore, pardon me!)

more photos, of the SWEETEST pair ever - sharon and vanda!!
look how simply adorable they look tog!
me and minnie, no matter how hard we try, has failed once and again and paled in comparison to sha and vanda ):
isn't that sad!
hahaha
admit it minnie, we're just nt sweet! awww... i know the truth hurts.. but i'll always be here for you, no matter if you're sweet (or NOT) lol (:







our feeble attempt at being sweet! so not working right! hahaha
hey i suddenly rem there are pics of us trying to kill each other with knifes! where are the pics ar?
i think we are more suited for such photos la
hahaha

and the highlight of the meal!
the mad scramble between sha and minnie to feed each other with a spoonfull of the 'best' food available on the table (aka the leftovers)
competition was tough as they both tried to pile as much food on their spoons as possible
with minnie trying to balancing a mussel shell on top of a pile of food on the spoon
it was SO exciting, me and vanda cheering away at the sides, and busy snapping away!







minnie's masterpiece - mussel with veg on a spoon!

all THESE just for this picture!
(p/s: can't even see the food on the spoon la! wasted!)


-the aftermath-

oh how could i forget, abt the super friendly waiter
who asked us if we enjoyed the food and wanted us to bring more friends to dine there
hahaha
he was rly super nice! shld nominate him for best service award or smthing
but he quite poor thing la, assumed that we were leaving when we were actually jus resting before dessert
so he cleared our tables, and even polished it bright, sparkling-ly clean
and i guess much to his horror - we bought more dessert and dirited the table once again

the stacked-horribly-high-but-superb chocolate mousse! yummy! value for money they say.. hahaha
super nice crepe with the caramel maple ice cream which vanda picked! went very well with e crepe! def left me craving for more!
the horrendous number of utensils we used, just the 4 of us
finally it was time to leave

bet the waiter must be damn happy! finally can clear his table in peace!
haha just joking :P
we went to say bye to him before he left! he's so friendly la! hahaha
and i bet minnie was smitten with him, having said smthing to the extent that he look married, then -insert sad and down face-
LOL

2 more pics before i go off to bed!

$25 worth of lollipops!
minnie's nice-ly tied ribbon by vanda! :)
oh seeing the taka shopping bag suddenly reminded me of smthing - that minnie is super trustable!
as trustable as how she treats her 2 poor shopping bags, leaving them behind in marche, the toilets etc etc.. the list jus goes on and on
hahaha

had lots of fun tdy! hope we get to spend more of such time tog even after we enter uni! mus meet up for supper, hollad v, sleepovers etc! we will nvr drift apart coz we enjoy each others' company so much right?
oh vanda! thanks for paying for our company! haha... sounds wrong, BUT, we're rly touched, rly! (: we love ya! <3

ok! it's 230! and i'm rly tired! bedtime~ till nxt time, cya guys! (:

(p/s: rem our date nxt wk! involves "sleepovers, spongebob's friend" and many more i can't recall now coz my brain is asleep!)

*fen, with lotsa lotsa love (:

rasberrychocolate.spicycheese.mintchocolate.doublechocolate.orangewhitechocolate.kaya.hazelnut.peanutbutter.glazed.strawberrywhitechocolate.blueberry.

if all of the above makes sense to you, i bet you've done what me, hua and vanda did tdy...
... which is to queue for donuts at the donut factory
1h 30mins of my wednesday afternoon
at least time flew by with the company of my fellow lians, or not the wait wld have been horrendous!
wonder how pple can queue for 4+++ hrs jus for the donuts
i wld go mad before i even get to the counter

the bright orange boxes are so huge, gets in the way easily, and attracts the attention of pple all ard you
and i realise, it's quite a good conversation-starter too (like how we started chatting away w the sales lady in one of the clothing shops)

the donuts... well...
i think there are some flavours which are nicer compared to the rest..
the first one i tasted was so-so
so i was complaining a bit :X
haha
but my mum was raving about the double choco
all the chocolate, irresistable i guess
i rather liked the strawberry white... ultra sweet (:

bought 2 dozens back to my old company
but everyone was so busy ):
and some pple were not there ):):
hahaha
but i still got to catch up a bit with kym dearest and stacy
and boss too
it's kinda scary talking to him coz there will be times of like absolute silence and i can do nothing but smile stupidly
went to get the photos frm kym
came home and realised... the ones in want are nt in there!!
wasted trip dwn ):
maybe i shld make another trip dwn, then maybe i can also see who i wanna see! hahaha
on 2nd thoughts, i shall jus ask kym dearest to send it on me online :X
ohh! and kym said she's going to visit my hostel when i get settled in!
yeah-ness!
can't wait! (:
i miss it there!

time sure flies! sch's starting soon! BOO
lians, let's get tog and do smthing fun b4 sch starts k!

there's nothing i hate more,
than insecurity, waiting, ambiguity, and more waiting.

*fen

hahaha. hiiiiieeee liansss!

was back frm the camp on sat evening. haha. the camp was superb i tell u! tho it can b rather tiring, (slpt for ~ 3hrs everydae nia!) but its definitely worth it! haha.

and i din noe there are so many eye candies ard in uni!haha. rite minnie? lol.

i miss miss miss camp! so wanted to go for the union camp which starts today. but i cant cos i hav to work and this wk is my last wk! booohoo. so sad la. there are no more camps le. they are havin fright night tomo! i m so into scarin myself ever since tt camp. LOL. sm i noe. haha. i so wana go!haha. i went to ask my camp mate if i could join. hope to hear his reply soon! lol.

oohhh. i din get any thiner lea.hahaha. ppl usu lose any weight in camps due to the lack of slp n insufficient food or sth. haha. i think im abnormal! haha!

Oh yea! i toasted 2 slices of bread todae! yipee!! first i toast them lightly till light brown (crisp) den spread butter, toast again till fully crisp, den i add in tuna mayo spread! it was perfectly yummilious!!! haha. such a filling and satisfying breakfast i had! haha. and yea! my colleague brought durian along! haha. * droolsss*

before i forget, its the durian season now! (durian! come its time to promote yrself!) ahahaa. i so wan to eat durian! (as in the fruit. ya duh. lol) lets meet for for some quality ones like d24?? how abt tt? im a sucker for durian la.

yey! lunch will be kfc!! haha. my colleagues are ordering! fried chicken rox! haha. cant wait! tho im still very full now. wahaha.

im having dinner out ltr at some jap restaurant! lol.

conclusion is sharon = food

haha. okok. tts for all . gg to pack the files! (again) lol

oh yeaa. btw, durian, are u serious abt chionging this fri? where u wana? mos? st james? haha. u decide kay n tell us abt it! :) i rem sth lame. hua hua said sth like she cant chiong in the night cos she has tuition tomo. haha. so wad, we r gona chiong in the MORNING? hahaha.mayb hua shld be the first to try it out.

<3 bunbun <3

this is SO awesome. i went for medical checkup today and my weight is a cool 32.6. gosh. its even less than before. wow. im impressed and proud of myself. anyway, i bought a new phone!! k880i. heehee.